I watched the ceiling from my low bed. It bent when the girls danced upstairs.
I looked out that window for a year, saw the water low under the bridge.
I stayed as still as I could under the bedspread.
The shower below the stairwell, as if a foot could, through the ceiling.
I washed the dishes in the round basin sink and found it beautiful, an inverted bridge.
Bent myself into a dance, watched the water.
My plywood desk splintered and sagged.
Threw up blueberries on the tile one day; I worried the heater would light the curtains on fire.
I guess it was spring then, but who can ever tell but if the river is rising?
I heard laughter out of my mouth.
The light was so bright in the mornings that the tulips opened into small, petaled basins.
Yes, I watched the moon, stilling to its height.
My face round after the night, and I tried the trick with spoons, as if cold water could.
Emily Lee Luan is a Taiwanese American poet and essayist. A 2020 Margins Fellow at the Asian American Writers’ Workshop, her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Best New Poets (2019), The Rumpus, Washington Square Review, The Offing, and elsewhere.
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